This is too funny, when Shelley was here we were looking at pictures and crap like that...we also took a peek at my school work through the years... the funniest was seeing this english project from grade 12 with the comments to the effect of how I should keep writing and my teacher would really like to see where I end up in 10 years....HAAAAAAAAA!!!! well, its been about 14 years, I dropped out of high school about 4 months after that since I had to feed myself and pay my rent..I didnt finish high school until I was 22, didnt go to post secondary until I was 25, and then it was "only" culinary management, nothing academic, got pregnant before graduation, thus wasting my "education" in a field I already had 10 years work experience and have been a SAHM ever since and have added another baby to the mix. I wonder what he would think about the "waste"? Well, its not exactly a waste since I have these wonderful little beings, but it is pretty much a waste of my brain cells...I can feel them dying a little more each and every day...oh well, woe is me.
What would I have done differently? Probably nothing since the way I got here is how I got my children and I doubt that any other way would have given me these exact ones that I simply love and adore this bloody much...so who cares? all is irrelevant in my eyes and I need to stop whatiffing....

I cant believe that tomorrow is "baby" sister's 25th birthday...I also cant believe I remember more of her early life than mom...what a shame and what a waste of the 80s.....I also cant believe that Gord is going to be 35 this year.....I know I am starting to become relatively "old" but I still feel like I am about 16 inside. except that my joints are starting to hurt more and more.