My babies are asleep..and surprisingly enough I have restrained myself from googling up anymore former classmates...although having said that I will probably do that once I hit post, just to spite myself...further sending myself into my depths of despair over this dissatisfaction I am feeling with what is known as my life.. yes, I know how lucky I am to have the crap that I am blessed with...but blah fucking blah...this is soooooo not what I ever in a million years could ever have dreamed up for myself. all I seem to do is my usual waste time/neglect my kids and eat chocolate....I need out of this rut that is my life...I have so many grandiose plans/dreams that I just seem to keep procrastinating over...lazy ass.