So the thing now is that I am going to try my absolute hardest to be the very best mommy ever to these girls....I am just going to repress all the b.s. from the beginning of time til now and do this motherhood thing right....whatever that means. Just because I am fucked doesnt mean they have to be. How to deal with a two y.o. without losing it is something I have to definitely work on. but enough about me....he's gone to watch the hockey game tonight....good for him...where do I get to go? what do I get to do? I get to buy fucking groceries for him...I'm so lucky.....what would I do without him? hmmmm, have a life?