So here I am trying out this thing and screwing it up in my technically challenged way...what else could I really expect? If i have no great expectations of myself, then i wont be too disappointed when I do screw up will i? And if I do succeed, then its a good day in mommyland.... speaking of mommyland...who the hell would have ever thought that I would ever have kids...and not just one, but TWO....not too many people, thats for sure. Sometimes I think I am just beginning to get the hang of this parenthood thing...but that thought is usually only a fleeting one.. very fleeting. I mean, what the hell was I thinking....just because HE wanted kids, didnt exactly mean that I had to go along with him on it, now did I? the price you pay for "love"...what a crock of shit... I'm the one that had to be pregnant....I'm the one that gave birth...without drugs....i'm the one thats breastfeeding...I'm the one that has to look after it..and not just one...two of the little buggers. No wonder he wanted kids...I'm the one that does the bulk of the UNPAID work....but they can be pretty cute when they want to be. But most days I can honestly understand why some women just leave their kids...not that I would...but I can totally empathize with their situations. Its way harder than I ever thought if would be...and no one tells you that. And heaven forbid you actually SAY that you dont care for being a mother...people just dont get it and I just cant say it..because I dont care to hear their unwanted judgements for something I am simply expressing...not soliciting advice or ANYTHINg...usually I am just answering one of THEIR frigging questions. Man, I hate people..most of the time.